Tuesday, June 13, 2023

Westward Ho!

 Once again we had a wonderfully full May, so buckle up, this is going to be a long one. 

We started out the month with a field trip to a dairy farm. They had the most beautiful Jersey cows that were grass fed and so very spoiled. Everyone got to sample their creamy milk but my kids felt like it didn't taste as good with the aroma of manure in the background. I'll give them that...

At the end the kids got to walk through the fields with the cows. If I didn't know how much work a cow can be I would have been trying to smuggle one home in my van. It's going to happen someday...

Austin got to have soccer practice one evening in the William Penn indoor turf. Vivi had the little black rubber pieces all over by the end but she was happy. 


Mariah, Chet and Austin had their piano recital and all did really well. It's been neat to see the improvements they have made throughout the year. 

We planned on celebrating Eliza's birthday before our trip out west. She decided she wanted a Winnie the Pooh cake and did most of the decorating herself. She was very proud of the end result. 

Sadly, she woke up that night with a fever and threw up first thing in the morning. So we had to postpone her birthday. I covered her cake in saran wrap and tinfoil and put it in the freezer, praying that it would still taste ok in three weeks. She still opened her presents that day but felt pretty miserable the whole day. 

She was completely out on the bench. 

The next day was Mother's Day and the kids made me this card. 

They had so much fun making my card that they decided to make cards for all the women in the ward. They were so excited to hand them out at church; seeing the joy their service brought them was the best gift they could have given me. Eliza and Vivi stayed home with Tanner because they weren't feeling well still. Tanner made me a delicious breakfast, lunch and dinner and even wrote me a love note, which doesn't happen very often, making it all the more special.  

One day my mom asked if I could send her a picture of Mariah reading the scriptures for a member of the church there to use in a slideshow. I needed to do it quickly and Mariah was hesitant because she hadn't brushed her hair yet that morning. I told her she looked fine and went to take the picture. When I turned on the camera, this is what I saw: 
I had a good cackle and then asked Mariah if my appearance is what made her think she might need to fix herself up a little before I took a picture. Obviously it had been a morning...

Mariah and Eliza decided they both wanted haircuts so I attempted to do them myself. Thanks to Youtube they turned out alright and I was happy to not pay someone else to do it. 

We finished up the soccer season with a freezing cold last game. I'm always happy to be done with soccer and the kids are always sad...except for Eliza, she's probably happier than me. 

All but Austin got sick in the weeks leading up to our trip and we were just praying that we could all feel better enough to be able to still leave on time. Our prayers were answered and we were all healthy. 

The next morning we woke up bright and early to began the trek out west. The first night we stopped in Denver (Sorry again Tiffany for being the worst sister and not letting you know). We ate at an Indian restaurant where the food was delicious and we even had leftovers which we were grateful to use on Sunday so we didn't have to buy food then. We spent a little time swimming in the pool at the hotel and then had a great night of sleep.


We stopped for church in Vail, CO at a small branch house. We were definitely the loudest ones there, but everyone was very nice. We then had lunch at a really fun park by the river in Glenwood Springs. Tanner had made pepperoni rolls before we left on our trip so we enjoyed those for our lunch. 


We were all very happy to make it to Moab and headed right into the park. 

We did a few short, kid friendly hikes that evening and the kids had so much fun exploring the red rocks and playing in the sand. 





Vivi was a pretty good sport for the most part, but she just wanted to play in the sand the whole time and couldn't understand why we kept leaving. 

Because of the texture of the rocks, they were able to climb all over the place. 

We woke up early the next day to do a hike that isn't in Arches National Park but was so amazing. The kids were awesome on the way to the arch and Tanner and I had a hard time keeping up with them. When we finally made it to the Arch there was an older couple there who pointed to Eliza and said, "Your little girl was way ahead of everyone else." We just responded with "Yep, she's pretty amazing!" and they gave a look as if to say, "You guys need to step up your parenting game." But what is life with a big family if not to stress some people out every once in a while? 

Eliza's method on the steep parts often involved sliding on her bum so by the end she had a pretty nice hole in her pants. 








We hung out at the arch for a while and the kids got really creative with the echos from the canyon. Needless to say, everyone else on the hike knew a whole crew of obnoxious people were somewhere on the trail. We then headed back down and Eliza started to lose some motivation so we took it slow together. I had been praying lately for ways that I could better connect with her and that one on one time on the hike was an answer to those prayers. We talked the whole time and by the end she was jumping from rock to rock full of energy. 

We stopped on the way back to the hotel to look at some dinosaur footprints and then headed back to swim at the pool. 
The kids had a great time and didn't want to leave the water but we were hoping to do a few more hikes in Arches before bed. We first stopped at some food trucks for dinner and then headed back into the park. 



Eliza and Vivi fell asleep on the drive through the park so it was a little rough waking them up, but once they walked for a little while, they seemed to perk up. Vivi and I didn't make it to the base of these arches...she was so happy to play in the dirt so I decided to just wait with her while the others explored. 

Any time I asked if she wanted to keep going, or if she wanted me to hold her she said, "no thank you!" quite forcefully. She left with a little rock that she wouldn't put down for hours after. 

The next morning we headed for Nevada. We stopped at Lehman caves but found out that we had made our reservations for the following week...whoops. So we watched a video about the Great Basin and Tanner had the epiphany that I grew up in the Great Basin and he actually knew the area rather well. And now that we know, we'll make sure to have our reservations made so we can take a tour of the caves.

We finally made it to the ranch and Mariah wasted no time in finding the horses. 

Mariah and Trey spent a lot of time drawing together. And the kids had a blast riding four wheelers, jumping on the tramp, and exploring around the ranch. 

The kids also got to see the bummer lambs at the main ranch and had lots of fun letting them suck on their fingers. Vivi thought they were pretty fun too. 


These boys were quite the handful on the drive down to the main ranch. 

We tried our hand at fishing at the reservoir but didn't have any luck. It rained a lot while we were there and I was so happy with the wonderful, wet sagebrush smell. We spent some time visiting with Aunt Kelley and Uncle Paul and she spoiled everyone with warm homemade bread and honey. 

These girls had lots of fun together. 

Chet's awesome 4-wheeler hair. After leaving the ranch he told me of his harrowing experience in almost flipping the 4-wheeler. I asked if he had saved that story because he was afraid if he told me right after it happened I wouldn't let him ride any more, and he answered with a sheepish "yes". 

It wasn't long enough but we had a wonderful time with Dan and Katie's family. The morning we were leaving I was able to visit with some of my cousins that were in town for Karlie's graduation and that was such a treat. 

We then headed to Whitney, ID for the Crossley family reunion. Tanner and I were in charge of it this year but didn't feel like we had to do much because of Kaisa's awesome schedule from last year and all the happy helpers that made it such a great experience. 

Aunt Lisa brought a bunch of scrap fabric and helped with sewing projects. Everyone learned how to thread the machine and sew with it. They enjoyed it so much that they did it another day as well. 

Chet and Austin were excited to do an origami class and had fun teaching some of the boys their favorite creations. 

Vivi and Ruth were having a little moment eating their snack. They were just chatting away with each other. 

Aunt Natalie did a nature journaling class that had a big group of participants. Everyone seemed very pleased with their artwork at the end. 

We went on a beautiful hike up a canyon. There were so many wildflowers and the mountains were amazing. 
Tanner led a great devotional talking about our theme for the reunion, "Give me this mountain" from the story of Caleb in the bible. He used the quote: "Thee lift me and I'll lift thee, and we'll ascend together" and talked about how as a family we can help each other on our journey to our Heavenly Father. 

The youth were able to do baptisms in the morning and then the adults went that night to do sealings (where families are able to be together for eternity). It was such a special experience to all be together doing temple work for ancestors who have already passed. We were able to seal a family of 10 children to their parents and that was a really neat thing to see. That night we celebrated Lisa's birthday. 

My favorite part of the reunion was all the time the cousins had to bond with each other. I'm so grateful they have each other. 

Ty, Heather and Eliza decided to get fancy; Eliza wasn't so sure about it though. 

We took family photos in our reunion shirts


Played some partner soccer

Sang lots of songs...
We had a talent show with some awesome acts and a musical fireside. 

And I guess this is a pregnancy announcement: Baby boy due at the end of July! 

These five were all born within a year of each other

Same for these four. Austin and Eliza both have a group of five as well and I'm so bummed I didn't get a picture of them. 

Kathleen had a question and answer session to talk about her mission and it was such a neat presentation. I'm grateful she is such a great example to all her younger cousins. 

Sunday evening we had each family act out a family history story and it was so fun to see all the different stories. Mariah and Chet each did a great job reenacting stories that my Grandma used to act out for her grandchildren. 

Aunt Nattie brought a massager and here is a picture of the littles lining up for a turn. 

Austin wore himself out...

Eliza with Miriam Eliza

Aunt Heidi brought some fun minute to win it games with awesome prizes. 

Vivi was just happy to eat the ice cream at the end 

The reunion was filled with amazing devotionals, music, and time spent together. We were able to do yard work again for our service project and I was so impressed with how hard everyone worked. 

After the reunion, Tanner met up with his good friends Matt and Layton and I headed up to my sister Brittany's. 

Eliza and Levi got along great

We got lots of puppy time which everyone was thrilled about.

The boys had fun playing in the water. We all learned to avoid them with the squirt guns. 

Mariah enjoyed watching Aunt Boo with her training and even got to help her. 

Aunt Boo bought Eliza cupcakes for her Birthday which made her feel so special. 

On our last day with the Staples we went to a hot springs and enjoyed the warm water. We then headed down to Ty and Lisa's from there. 

Aunt Heidi made bath bombs with the oldest four and they really enjoyed the process and were so excited to have their own. 

Our kids have been wanting to go inside a temple for a long time so we were excited that there was an open house in Saratoga Springs. We loved having Aunt Heather with us. If you ever get an opportunity to go to a temple open house I highly recommend going. They are very sacred buildings with a special spirit inside them. 


Just in case you missed it...I'm pregnant...very pregnant. I was nervous about this trip and how I would feel with all the driving but I was so blessed to feel pretty well. 

The next morning we woke up and headed to a Badger Creek reunion. I worked at a youth camp in 2008 and it was such a transformative experience. Some of my best friends came from that job and I was so excited to be able to see so many of them. 

The kids got to go on a zipline
A giant swing
and rock climbing. I was proud of how brave they all were and they had a lot of fun. They also did some team building exercises. 

Such a great group of people! We didn't get to spend as long as I would have liked but it was still so great to be with those wonderful people. 

We then headed home, which is always our least favorite part of the trip. But the kids were amazing and we were grateful to make it home safely. Most times when we are traveling we don't get the best sleep because our youngest two are usually restless and wake us up a lot. But this is the first trip ever that we only had two nights of bad sleep. Vivi had a diaper rash one night that made her uncomfortable and Austin was feverish another night. But we were so grateful for the relatively good sleep that we got. 

I always feel a little sorry for our youngest on family trips because I know they would be a lot happier at home. But Vivienne was such a trooper. There was lots of bribery with fruit snacks and gum and we had a few meltdowns, but I was so impressed with her happy attitude. The older kids are so experienced with traveling that as long as there are lots of snacks and a good audiobook, they are pretty content. 

We're always sad to say goodbye to family and friends, but there's no place like home. 

Sunday, May 7, 2023

April

April is always a busy month but it seemed even more full this year. 

I was able to go with Tanner to a med conference in Florida at the very end of March/beginning of April. It was so nice to get away for a while just the two of us. We spent the first day in Tampa at the beach. I was so worried about Tanner getting sunburnt and kept nagging him until he put some on. And then pointed out all the burnt people and talked about how miserable they must be...smug in my preparedness. Then I forgot to put sunscreen on my back and chest...so I ended up burnt. A little bit of a humbling experience.   
And this was the only photo we got together the whole trip...

We then drove to Orlando during rush hour, not the smartest move on our part but we survived. Tanner had his conference for the next few days. I would work on church stuff, go shopping, and relax in the mornings and then when Tanner was done with his classes we would do something in the afternoon. We tried out lots of restaurants, went to the Orlando temple and swam in the hotel pool. Our favorite restaurant was probably this little hole in the wall Indian restaurant. I wanted to order everything off the menu and what we did get was delicious. Tanner had had a really busy last couple months at work so we were perfectly ok with taking it easy this trip.  

The last day we had to check out of our room before Tanner's classes were done so I went and got my nails and toes done. I initially went in planning on just getting my nails done but when I got a notification that our flight had been delayed I decided to get my toes done as well. The girl who worked on me was so sweet and we had a great time talking. I was wearing tennis shoes so I got to leave in these super cool sandals. The kids were disappointed that I didn't save them. 

The last day of the trip was our anniversary so we held hands for a little while in the airport...we're romantic like that. Twelve years married and we still like each other; we're calling that a win. We then watched General Conference as we waited at the airport for our flight. I actually got a lot more out of conference without the wonderful distractions that are my children. Although crying in front of a lot of strangers wasn't the most ideal. 

During our layover we went to California Pizza Kitchen. When I found out they were all sold out of sandwiches, I said to Tanner, "Well that was the only thing I wanted here". Meaning that he could order pizza and I would eat somewhere else. But then the manager heard me and went to the back and found more sandwiches and insisted on paying for both of our meals. It was really sweet of her. 

We were so grateful to Brittany and Natalie helping out watching the kids. They braved a tornado watch and did all kinds of fun things. I didn't feel like our kids missed me much when I was away in Colorado but they seemed to miss us a lot more with Tanner and I both being gone. We were Facetiming with them one night and Vivi said, "hold you mom" which I think was her way of saying she missed me. 

We got home late Saturday night and started off Sunday morning with all of our kids and all of the cousins in our bed. I couldn't have planned a more perfect welcome home. For breakfast I made biscuits and gravy and strawberry shortcake for Tanner's birthday. We are all so grateful that we have a Tanner in our life and though the lackluster celebrations may not show it, he really is our favorite. 

That night we had our Palm Sunday celebration and I thought the girls were so cute. It's a favorite of mine to hear the kids get excited for Jesus' triumphal entry; their "hosannas" are the most pure and precious thing. It is such a great way to begin the Easter week. 


We then ended the night with brownies and ice cream to celebrate Mariah's birthday a little early so her cousins could be there. 

Mariah is realizing she doesn't love cake, and I wasn't going to complain about brownies; they were a much easier choice. 
Vivienne Kay sure loves her Aunt Natalie Kay, I think we named her well. 

We started off Mariah's birthday with a tea party and german pancakes. 
Then we surprised her that night by taking her to the Lion King Broadway production. 
I started crying within minutes of the show starting. The costumes were amazing and it was nostalgic hearing that intro music. I'm pretty sure the movie is the first I ever cried in...so it was only fitting that I would cry throughout the whole production as well. There is so much beautiful symbolism throughout the play, and I felt so many emotions while watching it. It's definitely a new favorite. We then drove home that night through a tornado watch and enjoyed the lightening show. Poor Natalie wasn't so at ease at home. She ended up moving the kids down stairs so she could have some peace of mind. Which is exactly what I would have done. 

Natalie had to leave the next day and we are all counting down the days until we see her again. 

We dyed eggs and I have to help less and less with each year. And I'm not going to complain about that. 


We had our Passover meal and I think the kids consumed their weight in grape juice and flat bread. But it's all part of the experience. I'm always so proud of them for trying the unique flavors like horseradish and plain parsley. And they are able to focus and participate in the program more and more each year. 


We had a wonderful Easter Sunday program. There were many beautiful musical numbers and we had the opportunity to sing Risen as a family. We gave Vivienne a bag of marshmallows right before our song and she was a peach the whole time, much better than our practice the day before. I also spoke during the program and was grateful for the inspiration I was given from God in what to say. I always feel like my talks impact me more than they do anyone else, which is probably the whole point. 

The boys had been begging to have a campfire for several weeks and we finally were able to do that. 
I told them they had to gather up a bunch of the sticks around the yard to burn and that, my friends, is how you get enthusiastic helpers to clean up your yard. I'm going to have to remember that for the next campfire. 

Chet bathed Vivi that night while I was doing the dishes and this is how her hair looked when I finally sat down for a minute...

I was able to go to Nauvoo with a group of sisters from church for a temple trip. We went on a wagon ride after and I had to get a picture of Hyrum the Percheron for my favorite nephew with the same name. We had so much fun talking on the ride to and from Nauvoo. I am so grateful for my wonderful church friends. 

Vivi is a real firecracker, someone described her as a "pistol" today and I felt that was accurate. I found her cutting her own strawberries and she was so pleased with herself. 

We had to go and buy some soccer gear for some of the kids and Vivienne wore one of Eliza's cleats throughout the whole store. She would not let me take it off until we were ready to check out. 
Eliza taught her how to make a "scary face" and she loves doing it to everyone. It makes us giggle. 

Spring Soccer is in full swing and I feel all kinds of regret, but we're committed. Yeehaw...

We ended the month cleaning up our flowerbeds and putting in mulch. What I optimistically thought would only take a few hours took most of the day and we laid the mulch down in the rain, but the oldest three helped and we had that part done in about ten minutes. We are all ready for good weather and more time outside! 

Monday, May 1, 2023

Our Mariah

The girl who made me a mother is 11...I have been a mother for 11 years! Some days it feels like 100 years and other days I feel like I'm still 11. This motherhood thing is a wild ride. I feel so blessed to get to experience life with Mariah Jeanne, she brings so much light and joy to others. 

I decided to use some different questions as my kids get older for their birthday interviews. 

1. What do you like most about yourself right now? 

This year I've been trying to notice other's needs more and monitoring my interactions and doing that has made me a better person. 

2. What do you think your future job will be?

I don't know, but I know some things that I want my future jobs to be. I really want to write books because I love writing stuff and I think it would be fun to be a piano performer. And my Aunt Nattie is a painter and I might want to do that. Oh and I love animals so maybe own a farm or be a dog trainer. (I love how she has been positively influenced by three different aunts and the career paths that they pursued.)

3. What do you love to eat? 

I love Alfredo because of how creamy and delicious it is. I also love Hawaiian Haystacks because of all the        different flavors in it. You have the sweet and sour sauce mixed with the gravy and then you have all sorts of        fruits and vegetables mixed with the rice and it's just so good. I also love eating out because all the food is not what we normally have at home. (Mariah has come a long way in her acceptance of food, just don't make her        spaghetti...that always puts her in a depression.)

4. How do you like to spend your time?

I love playing with my siblings but I also at least once a day read a book. I enjoy playing outside and when I'm    really bored I draw a picture or play the piano. 

5. What are you good at?

I'm good at reading and writing not spelling but describing things and illustrating things through words. And I think I'm pretty good at piano and music. I love to sing too. I love doing soccer, I'm not a pro, but it's fun for me; it's something I love to do. 

6. Who are your best friends and why do you like each other?

My siblings and family are definitely some of my best friends. Annalie and Miri are some of my best friends        because of all the interests we share. For instance we all play the piano and Anni and Miri are kind of like my    sisters because I don't have sisters around my age so it's fun to have them come over. I also love to play with         our neighbors, especially Tessa and I go to choir and I have some friends there. 

7. Who is someone you look up to? 

I definitely look up to my dad a lot, my dad and my mom. Because they have influenced my world and I                always want to be like them. I've always wanted to be a mom so looking up to my parents shows me how I can    be in the future. (Disclaimer: Mariah sees the best in everyone, it's a wonderful gift that she has. And while        Tanner and I are far from perfect parents, we're grateful for the grace Mariah extends to us and the potential        she sees in us.)

8. What makes you sad? 

I get sad when my family is away or when family members leave; it just makes me unhappy. (Anytime family    that has come to visit leaves we have lots and lots of tears.)

9. What is your favorite outfit to wear?

On Sunday I love wearing my dresses because I just feel so nice. I love floral patterns in my clothing. I just        love flowers, they are so beautiful and delicate. I also like my clothes to be not very restricting so my pants I        like to be tight around the waist and lose on the legs. (Mariah loves to accessorize with jewelry and bows to        match her outfits...something that I never even thought of at her age.)

10. What makes you really annoyed?

I don't like when my siblings scare me really bad. That annoys me so much. 

11. What makes you feel proud?

 I feel proud that I'm a member of the Church of Jesus Christ of Latter Day Saints. Being a member makes me     feel like a daughter of God and I'm very proud to be one of His daughters. 

12. What makes you happy?

I love being with my family and having a good time with them. I also love giving gifts to others and I enjoy        music: playing music, listening to music. I also like reading and writing my own stories for others to read. 

13. Which of your nicknames do you like the most?

 I don't really have a nickname but I'm trying to get people to call me MJ. So far only my mom has and one girl     at soccer. 

14. What’s the best thing that’s happened to you lately?

 My birthday was in April and what's great about my birthday is I feel that every birthday you're moving on and     getting older every year. (I don't think going to The Lion King on her birthday hurt either.)

15. What do you do when you feel sad?

What I do most often is I read a book. And I like to say a prayer sometimes when I'm feeling sad. I also play the piano because it calms me down. 

16. What's your favorite thing to do with Mom? 

I just love talking with mom because our conversations can be so different and yet in every one it makes me feel so important and helps me to be happy. 

17. What's your favorite thing to do with Dad? 

Dad loves being read to so I like to read him books. I also like to play sports with him and have him teach me little more about sports. It's fun. 

18. What's your favorite thing to do with Chet?

 I like to do pillow fights because he always makes every fight so funny without even trying to. 

19. What's your favorite thing to do with Austin? 

 I like to draw pictures with Austin because he wants to learn more of that and I'm not very good but I can still     teach him some things. (Mariah will draw intricate pictures as a dot to dot for Eliza to trace and color.)

20. What's your favorite thing to do with Eliza? 

I like to read story books to Eliza because when I read funny ones she laughs really hard and it's kind of like        she becomes part of the story and I like to watch her. 

21. What's your favorite thing to do with Vivi? 

Vivi loves to "fly" so I just hold her up and she'll spread her arms and legs out and I'll run around with her. She     also asks me to "get her" so I'll pretend to be a monster and chase her. 

Mariah is so good at doing her school and is learning how to handle an increased workload as she is getting older. There are times where math can get overwhelming...hence the sad selfie. 

Mariah is such a good big sister. She is always thinking of ways to make her younger siblings happy and they all adore her. 

I love Mariah's creativity and willingness to try new things. Often I have to ask her if she really wants to do something or if she is only willing to do it because she thinks I want her to. She is learning to choose the things that bring her the most joy and fulfillment. 

Mariah still loves animals, especially Josie. She talks to her in this high voice that gets on my nerves, but Josie seems to really like it. 

I love listening to Mariah try out new songs on the piano. She has been experimenting with songs she knows by ear and changing them up. Right now she's been doing her own version of That's What Makes You Beautiful and it makes me so happy hearing her plug away on it. 

She also loves to come up with her own songs that are often funny. I took this picture of her singing her own song filled with all the random Spanish words she knows. She has been learning Spanish through Duolingo and never misses an opportunity to use what she has learned in conversations. 
Mariah loves to sing in public and has been able to touch others through her gift of music. 

Mariah loves to dance...her moves are a lot like her mother's, so she probably won't be paying the bills with her dance skills. But dancing makes her so happy and I love to see the joy that it brings her. 


Mariah has improved so much in soccer this last year. It's really fun to see her ability to be in the right place at the right time grow. She usually only plays defense and scored her first goal last week from the back (or however they would say that in soccer talk). 

Mariah is constantly doodling different things. She especially loves drawing animals doing human things. Her siblings love those drawings too. 


This girl is just so good. She is a friend to everyone and knows how to make people feel special and important. She has a quiet confidence about her from knowing who she is and Whose she is. I'm so grateful for her love for Jesus Christ and her willingness to share that love with others. We are so proud of Mariah and all that she is.